Notices by Thorwegian ❄️ (thor@berserker.town), page 22

@housepanther oh, i wouldn't mind that but i'd REALLY need a snack after that

@housepanther i find that i've developed a new fondness for alcohol after that surgery - which is apparently a more common side effect than you'd think

i guess if you can't get your kicks from food, you seek them elsewhere.

the snack is just a substitute.

@housepanther it seems like i've got a brain that just needs to have some kind of unhealthy habit. probably the ADHD doing it. the dopamine kick. you're always seeking it.

@housepanther i mean, yeah, it's escapism in a way, i think. situations you feel powerless to escape, and they make you feel tense

@housepanther for a brief period during a particularly stressful Christmas they prescribed Sobril.

i wouldn't describe it as giving me a high. more like "oh, i feel normal again"

but they can't prescribe benzos for you long term.

@housepanther in terms of harm reduction though, i'm not sure if it's better that i drink a little too often instead 😬

@housepanther i'm more where i'm trying to cut back all the time and trying to restrict it but it's hard

@housepanther some trauma 3 years ago utterly destroyed my tolerance for stress - i get worked up really easily and struggle to calm down

@housepanther i was handling my mom dying of cancer while also dealing with a faltering career and trying to medicate myself out of it with ADHD drugs that triggered a manic episode and a mental breakdown

@housepanther due to my lack of a social network, i was using her as a leg to stand on more than i was aware of. i was doing a lot of things because somebody cared that i did. like, i do stuff for others, not for my own sake, usually

@housepanther people usually think of left and right but i think it's fairly accurate to think of functional small societies as being not quite either - they're communitarian

ah so that's how you do it

@matrix oh i'm not disagreeing there

@matrix it would be difficult to discuss without hitting the topic at some kind of angle

using public transportation is a debt you owe in a way - it's not really there to make your life easy - the government expects productivity in return, at least on the long term on average - so it is something that is handed to you with the expectation that you'll make that money back through taxes.

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@coolboymew vague memory of killing the shell with unexpected results

@coolboymew kstart plasmashell or sudo kstart plasmashell?

@coolboymew i think i have killed the shell before but i no longer remember if the apps will stay open

@coolboymew i'm leaning toward a reboot here. i rarely reboot, but it seems that the more advanced the computers get, the less reliable they are