Then maybe I want to make it just for me, like Walter White doing the Heisenberg bit ultimately for himself. Just like the /fit/ bros say you should lift only for you, because there's no guarantee that anyone else will even care, and such motivation is fleeting. I've got things I want to achieve before a woman. But that brings us back to square one, that makes it feel like I'm doing it all for a woman? Maybe that's just a semantic difference. Wanting to reach square 2 before reaching square 5 doesn't mean you're necessarily doing it all for square 5.