You and I think a lot alike. I've told people to learn to be an EMT, weld, etc. because those are "prepping" skills that you can make a living off of now and also use the skills if or when "shtf" happens.

Also, I am in the same position as far as choices I've made in the past with women and careers. It's human nature I think to look back and wonder what might have been but it doesn't do us a whole lot of good at the end of the day aside from learning from past mistakes. I like to think that everything happens for a reason.