@Leaflord It’s natural, especially now that the fem-complex of single moms & teachers drill in paranoia and fear to such a pitch. You should be a little awkward in the beginning, I just don’t like guys staying awkward and acting like a 16 yo forever.
Over time, you get better, grow out of it, gain the experience, and stop fixating on beginner mistakes. I see this a lot in flying, too, where new guys just focus on some small bugbear and endlessly fret about it instead of attaining proficiency and moving on to other items. Time & experience will provide the needed polish to someday hone mastery