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1. 7666 (7666@comp.lain.la)'s status on Thursday, 29-Aug-2024 01:50:56 JST 7666

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   • Crispy Branzino
   @Nimbius666 I think there is a difference between righteous spite and spite without cause. I wager a lot of my notoriety comes from how, when I feel justified to do so, I will rip apart someone to the bone. Additionally, those moments give me fuel to do the things I do at the scale in which I do them - spite is a fantastic energy to harness. Some of my most productive moments have come from a position of "Fuck you". I think even you personally have driven this for me in regards to getting my CISSP, although I can't remember exactly why.
   
   The problem is discretion. There is a time and place for that energy to manifest, and many people get this wrong and just look like a lunatic or moron. For me, the justification to blow up on someone is usually hard to earn and I remain kind by default. Just don't let people think your kindness is weakness, and lose your shit with discretion backed by principle.
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   • Crispy Branzino (nimbius666@comp.lain.la)'s status on Thursday, 29-Aug-2024 01:50:57 JST Crispy Branzino
     My mother drank herself to death filled with rage and an axe to grind against anyone she met. She never accepted accountability for her actions, she always had an excuse. She was polite in company and vitriolic in private, and taught me to scorn others as lesser. She would insist I say please and thank you as a child, but never herself once uttered the words to others. Perhaps she wished I'd be better than her. Mom died blaming everyone around her for the world she lived in.
     
     One of the hardest things ive had to do as an adult is learn the empathy and trust, sincerity and kindness to others I was never meant to express. How to maintain friendships and keep people I love close instead of pushing them away. Ive gotten okay at it; Better at listening, Better at trying to help people.
     
     I never want to become as isolated and vitriolic as she was. I never want people to remember me for my spite.