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1. bless (bless@mirr0r.city)'s status on Thursday, 23-Feb-2023 09:39:49 JST bless

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   @pedophilesoftwareinc @arcana @salty i never totally related to schizoid symptoms but 'the empty core' as a basic phrase really hits. have felt utterly hollow a lot. apparently it's the case with bpd too which had more relatable symptoms
   • mental meltdown likes this.
   • <script> alert("sogg"); </script> (pedophilesoftwareinc@cum.salon)'s status on Thursday, 23-Feb-2023 09:39:50 JST <script> alert("sogg"); </script>

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     @bless @arcana @salty few can relate to such deep lapses of ego, maybe https://archive.org/details/emptycoreobjectr0000sein is worth a read
   • Arcana (arcana@pengi-san.moe)'s status on Thursday, 23-Feb-2023 09:39:52 JST Arcana

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     @bless @salty That’s exactly what we mean! And we feel the same! I think we simply are utilizing differing definitions of the term “self-deprecation”. I intended only to be supportive and to relate. I am sorry if I somehow offended, friend.

   • bless (bless@mirr0r.city)'s status on Thursday, 23-Feb-2023 09:39:52 JST bless

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     @arcana @salty i just need to dedicate myself to solving this psychological hell riddle i exist in
   • bless (bless@mirr0r.city)'s status on Thursday, 23-Feb-2023 09:39:53 JST bless

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     @arcana @salty why do people keep saying this is self-deprecation
     
     im articulating that when i think about myself i feel a knee-jerk fury at my own existence that makes me want to end it
     
     i'm not calling myself ugly and fishing for compliments, im typing this stuff out because i feel like im about to fucking explode (and i feel this way approximately 24/7) and there's some impulsive hope of relief that makes me type it out occasionally
   • Arcana (arcana@pengi-san.moe)'s status on Thursday, 23-Feb-2023 09:39:54 JST Arcana

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     @bless @salty This is relatable. And this behavior is something we engage in frequently. Patterns of self-deprecation and discussions of related thoughts of self-harm or suicidal ideation without intent to act are not uncommon, but they are forbidden by society’s inherently fucked requirement for people to portray themselves as outwardly happy even while they are inwardly suffering.

   • bless (bless@mirr0r.city)'s status on Thursday, 23-Feb-2023 09:39:55 JST bless

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     @salty i am expressing the fact that i am in pain
   • Sea Urchin (salty@rot.gives)'s status on Thursday, 23-Feb-2023 09:39:56 JST Sea Urchin

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     @bless my favorite person once again needlessly shitting on herself
   • bless (bless@mirr0r.city)'s status on Thursday, 23-Feb-2023 09:39:57 JST bless
     I hate myself and I hate my retarded existence