It is never you, you are sinful, fallen, graceless, unrighteous. It is only through Jesus Christ that you be made whole again, truly in God's image as when He created Adam and Eve. Every one of us inherit sin as we are born from sinful creatures. You can NEVER make up for the sins you've committed and will commit. Jesus' sacrifice means nothing if you believe you can pay for your sins, for you truly cannot know the scope and weight of your sins. Even the "smallest" sin has enormous unforeseen and long consequences. We deal with the consequences of a fallen world, as people cry out as to why God would allow horrible things to happen as though these weren't the actions of our fathers that have impacted us to this very day