Conversation

One frustrating thing about autism is when your needs go counter to the needs of the people around you. And as a result you just have to either suffer alone or be an asshole.

Suffering alone is very hard.

It’s very easy for people to say: “just find something/someone else to fit that gap!”

But that’s not how the world works.

The only time that actually works if you intentionally let yourself get used by other people — and you have something worthwhile for people to use your for, whether that’s money or sex.

A lot of human relationships are sadly purely transactional. I don’t like those kinds of relations with other people.