Been single now for 7 years and I'm 39. I have such an overwhelming sense of hopelessness and disappointment and the loneliness can be overwhelming.
I mean even then my last relationship which was only a few months I had to endure psychological abuse and in the previous one, significant gaslighting. Will a relationship ever be a reality for me after all this time. The only time I find myself with a girlfriend is in my dreams, literally. For a moment overnight I would occasionally experience that feeling of being connected to a woman in that way, only to wake up and realise what is a reality for millions of everyday people is still only a mere fantasy for me.