It's startling just how impulsively I act when I'm not under pressure to act responsibly by family, school or work. 90% of the free will and impulse control I thought I had in my old life was just pressure from the structures around me and fear of loss. Without that, I don't do much of anything unless I'm angry, scared, hungry or horny. Very minimal ambition, in other words. Just the bare necessities. Thor the Barbarian lives another day.