I really don't know anymore. In some ways I think even if I scored the whole loyal wife package, complete with children - would I really find happiness? would I really find fulfillment? Is this true to my nature or does God ask for something more?
no you wouldn't score ultimate happiness, and if it did you would be less of a man, a woman, a family is a next step in the life of a single man, eventually most of us will find one, God didn't make us all to be weird "forever alone I'm Ryan Gosling" neets but it's not the end goal.
As for the last part I'd encourage you to pump the brakes.