@Lavaearth no, not here as in fedi. I mean here as in the real world. I can relate more to people in fedi rather than irl tbh.
Like yesterday, it dawned on me that no one had actually a good idea on what I am. That itself is good to me but someone needs to have something that knows what he is inside as a tool to keep himself in check from the currents.
I guess I found my answer before sleeping, so it's fine now.